what 2013 had taught me.

2013 ;

where trust was broken, promises was a lie, belief was being betrayed.

friends back-stab, untrue rumors was spread.

being hurt over and over again.

yet

i found out who was my real friends, because good friends are the ones who wouldn't let you go through the hard times alone..

this indescribable year where i been through hardship and good times made me noticed and realise a lot of things.

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what i had learnt during this past 12 months ;

i'm grateful for those who have stayed by my side during my hardest moments and listen to all my bullshit talks and complains. 

i'm thankful for those who have left me, letting me realise you was just pretending that you had cared for me.

i'm appreciative for the pair of ears i have, because i realise, everywhere at any time, everyone was spreading un-true rumors about me, judging me, back stabbing me when they had the chance.

lastly, my love ones who had tried to cheer me up when i was upset and not making fun of me when i cried like an ugly duckling.

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i can't put it into words but i feel that the life i had to go through for 2013 was a messy and beautiful one.

There was really a lot of dramas going on, that i got lost on the way..
it also where i had to learn to pick myself up and continue in life. " Life still goes on. "

i also believe the following year, there will be more drama coming into my life, it may becomes a lesson or right decisions i will have to make.

I shall let my future self decides when the day comes.

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just thinking about it..i felt stupid for trusting and believing in some of the people who i thought i could trust..i guess it was just me believing like an idiot..

Reminding my past now, is tearing me and making me really emotional now.
I'm okay it's all in the past now...i won't cry over spilled milk.

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They always said " You've changed. " maybe i did changed..long ago before i knew..

well, here is the truth, 
i stopped letting people push me all around or walked me over and over again, i no longer want to get used because i know how painful it feels like. I learnt that i can't be happy all the time. I also learnt that i have to accept and face the reality.

there was this time where, i became to a point where i could no longer trust anyone, what was on my mind was " you have some motive when you approach me. "

i even started distancing myself from my closest friends..i thought " nobody could understand what i was going through now. " even if i was to tell them, the replies i get is always " cheer up, everything is going to be alright. " 

there was no actions to tell me " everything is going to be okay. "..

all i heard was just  half - hearted words, i needed actions not words..

what was really on my mind was ;

i don't trust words, i regretted telling each and one of  you, one of my deepest secret where i took up a huge sum of courage..

the lies coming out from their mouth.. it hurts my heart so badly that i was so stupid to even thought i could trust u and tell you something i couldn't even tell one of my closest friend.

..few days later...

all types of untrue rumors begin to spread..it became worst, and at the same time with the family problem i had, i wasn't in the state of studying, i wasn't myself in school, i faked a smile every single day, i kinda don't even know anything anymore..

i hate burdening others, as usual i kept everything to myself. In the end,

I'll just end up crying more till i become cold..

i felt emotionless sometime..it's not that i don't try to express myself, it like i couldn't anymore..

i felt that " i no longer understand happiness."

i questioned myself " what is smiling ? Is this even a smile that i had truly smile from the bottom of my heart?"

" Yes, i laugh a lot, but that doesn't mean i am truly happy all the time. "

Still i will continue to smile, if it can makes someone else day ;)

I've changed for the better and for the worst. 

I'll became more positive instead of the past.

 You may say, it's one of the most " awfully worst and amazingly great " year? i'm not trying to exaggerate stuff but, i been through shit this year... i just hope that..

Basically, i am just doing a reflect on what had happened for the past months. 2013, is finally coming to an end.. It's like 12 months is going to be soon gone before i know..and when i realise... one year is going to past by like any other days..

Lastly, i just want to say " stay positive and calm at all times. "
No matter what happens in life, you have to learn to be independent and overcome it.
At times do also relay on people who can trust, don't trust the wrong one and regret for life.

ANDD ,
to the new peeps who entered my life, and stayed with me throughout the whole journey even though i am like annoying as hell, thank you for listening to my complains..
oh ! to end off, i want to say sorry to a person HAHAS, for calling in middle of the night to listen to my rubbish talks HAHAS.

i shall sign off now♥︎

Hope, next year will be a better year. Thank you last day of 2013.

Afternoon Tea at Tea Tozz.

Good Afternoon lovelies . 

Lets us return back to Saturday, 21st nov shall we? this is a throwback entry that i had not updated perviously hehes... HA ! i bet you are wondering what i was doing few days back then ? I was down at Scape // Somerset with my best friend, Deborah. Andddd !! i was so happy the other day HAHAS. OH !! this time i did remember to take what we ate, i swear i didn't forget okayy !!

Texas Chicken for brunch? HAHAS, i know it isn't well taken but at least i remember to take a picture of our meal this time round hahas. * ignore my bff hand hahas*

On Le MRT train, otw to somerset☺️ as usual we took selfies ; 

Lets move on, i'm just gonna show you a picture of the bubble tea shop i am going to share with you guys today hehes.

♥︎ Tea Tozz ♥︎ is actually a bubble tea shop which was perviously opened at Bugis. I was introduced to this shop by my cousin when i head down to town with her last time which was like a way long time back ago. She showed me this lovely shop, when i was outside the shop, i still remember that i was being given some sample to try, after tiring out their sample for the very first time, i immediately fall in love with their own hand made taste, its taste was totally different from all the other bubble tea brand i had tried before ! After a while, when i returned to Bugis again, the shop was closed down, i was so upset..because i really loved their taste compared to the other bubble tea shops, i feel that this particular store bubble tea taste nicer than other etc bubble shops...It is my personally taste but i am not sure how you guys feel about their bubble tea ! and that is also one of the reason why i am writing up to share with my readers♥︎

I was so happy and glad when i saw the shop being opened at Scape, i was like " FINALLY !! i can drink their bubble tea again !! " 

To me, this is my favourite bubble tea among all the other brands.

The recommended menu. 

Deborah's receipt and mine.

Hot Chocolate♥︎♥︎

How the cup looks like, i think that it is quite unique.

A selca of my best friend drinking her hot chocolate hehes.

Soya Pudding with strawberry sauce.

SO CUTE RIGHT?! I KNOW HAHAS.

showing off my soya pudding hahas.

A selfie of me that i had edited hahas.

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i just like to edit food photos hehes, i ended up editing quite a few version HAHAS.

That's all for my Soya Pudding edits hehes. You must be wondering why didn't i ordered any bubble tea ? well, i saw there was new dishes so i wanted to try them out instead, since i have drank their bubble tea before. But if you do go there, i suggest you to try out their passion fruit or caramel milk tea.

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~When in process of eating HAHAS~

We taken quite a lot of pics, so instead of uploading one by one, i turned some of the pics into a collage hehes, this way it is fast !!

we so sweet hahas. ( it is like kinda awkward hahas..)

unglam faces hehes.

NYAAA !

twinny pose hehes.

the suggesting pose?

my usual well-known pose HAHAS.

She was on the phone, and i took this chance to take a photo of her hahas,  i think i was like kinda annoying hahas.

i look weird here hahas.

idk.. just what was we doing HAHAS?

we look like sisters hehes.

That is all the selfies we had taken at Tea Tozz hehes ~

no comment hehes.

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Moving on ! after we finished our afternoon tea at Tea Tozz, we went and shop around scape hehes.

Next, we head outside scape to take some pictures hehes.

a photo i took of my best friend hehes.

my face looked very unglam, i had to cover it..

A selca my best friend took and i edited it to B&W because i like B&W effect hehes.

so...we went to this japanese store, and bought some items, i will show you guys later!! when we met this really cute person, my best friend and i was, " we wanna take a picture with her !! " so we took a photo with her after we bought some stuff from her.. please don't laugh, i know how i look so unglam here because of my face..ohminegoshh..

After all the walk and shopping, it was time to settle down for dinner ! Had chicken rice from foodrepublic for dinner, it was yummy.

What i had bought at scape;

This is the cute packing that was given to us.

my best friend and i bought a different badge, but their badges are really pretty so we bought together hehes, sadly there wasn't extra badges that looked the same that why we couldn't get the same kind of design together sighh..

just some cards i choose and bought for someone hehes..

This beautiful bracelet actually costed me $5, but i feel that it is worth buying because it looked so elegant hehes, and i really love floral prints so ya hehes..and it usual price was $7.90 but i manage to get a discount hehes.

To end off this post, some of you guys may actually be wondering, why are most of my photos taken with this cute neko [ cat ] looking hairband? well..it actually comes in many different colours ! 

The one i had gotten was the pastel blue colour, it was actually given/sponsored to me and my best friend by her sister. She is selling this cute and lovely hairbands at a cost of only " $6 each! " i feel that the price of this hairband is super reasonable!! Not only these kawaii hairbands, she also sell cheap suspenders at a price of " $7.50 each only ", i think it is a good price compare to the ones i bought at bugis for " $10 " which was way more expensive! 

Lastly, do support her ! You can order from her at her FB account; https://www.facebook.com/dabendan.rebekah?fref=ts ,many thanks * strictly no meet ups *

That's all for todays entry hehes, thank you for reading !!

BYEEE!!